FML

So i just ate dinner (corn, green beans, and onions with a little tiny steak) it was okay ish. Me and my family started talking about how I've been on a diet for the past 2 weeks and how I've been running. The both are proud of me because i didn't give up, however after that this is how the conversation went.

Me: "I think im doing pretty well."
Dad: "Yeah you haven't cheated, i don't think."
Mom: "Yeah i can tell you've lost some weight, now you just need to work on your legs."
Me: "Well i think i'm doing good. Everyone thinks i'm stupid for being on a diet and i don't need it."
Dad: "Oh, they're just being nice. You do need to be on a diet."
Me: "Wow, eff my life."
Dad: "No, just so you can be healthier."
Me: "I'm going for another run"

FML.
lol

5/18/09

today was pretty chill. It was the first day i officially drove to school woo! I ate inn-n-out mmm protein style, so yess i was allowed to eat it x) I was pretty sleepy because i had to read last night, but i did get it done and the test was super easy x) After school i had a robotics meeting which was chill, but i got left with an ass load of shit to do regarding that. Then i chilled with tony for a little until he got picked up because i felt bad for him...sikee lol jk Then i came home and ate! woo what a day lol

I have to go for a run soon, trying to get back in shape. My dress looks pretty nice though! I'M SOOO EXCITED FOR PROM! DENG but I'm taking the SAT in a few weeks and i have to study my ass off for that. effff.

what ever!

So Today..

First of all, Pat i'm sorry you think my blog is boring. You don't have to read it. I pretty much just started it so i can write about stuff if i'm stressed out. So don't feel obligated to read it. And yes, i do think your blog is boring, which is why i don't read it.

So today was a total fail. I didn't find a dress, so tomorrow i'm going downtown. Wooo! Hopefully i find something. Haha. OHH and tomorrow is mothers day and i haven't gotten her anything yet, i guess i'll just wake up early and go pick something up in the morning. Procrastination? yikes. It's okay.

So today we finalized our decision on getting a cc sport! wooo! but i have to wait till next weekend. damn it.

That's it, i'm going to go watch Benjamin Butten.
goodnight

The Rest of The Week

Over all, the rest of the week was pretty chill. I got all my shit done on time. I think i did well on my chemistry test. I went to EC for chemistry. The robotics recruitment meeting went pretty well. I gave my friend a ride home today and on my way back almost fell asleep. He needs to shave his chin though...farealll! lol

Oh! i almost forgot, i started my diet yesterday. No carbs is a pain in the ass, but whatever. I have to get skinny for prom. I find myself getting sleepy really easily, but that might be because of my female hormones, if you know what I mean. Well hopefully i can keep it up.

Tomorrow I am going shopping with the girls for my prom dress! Woo i'm excited, but worried that I won't find a good dress. My date want's gold, so we are going to wear gold. I look orange in gold...so i was thinking gold and black, haha we will see what i find.

Crap sunday is mother's day, I am officially screwed. I have no idea what to get her, but tomorrow i think i might pick up a card and some of her favorite chocolates or something. Man i hope that she buys the car tomorrow, i think she might. If she doesn't.....she's going to stress about it next week. We will see. hmm

Well good bye for now.
Oh, when i was taking my friend home we somehow began talking about poetry, so I guess ill post my poem from a while ago...This happens to me way to often:

Dear:

Our love was a bond that couldn’t be broken
An untold secret that couldn’t be spoken

Our love was a note carried on for years
An unseen mask that hid all our fears

Our love was a quiet fresh breath of air
A final step on the very last stair

Our love was eternal, just as you said
A promise you made, one I’d soon dread

Your lies have evolved and revealed the truth
I can’t stop thinking of what you have proved

I thought you were different, perfect for me
But you’re like the others in the past I have seen

You talk like a symphony, collaborated music
My beauty is the heavens; it’s all just a trick

My face is a dream, a flight to the moon
A journey that has paused and will end soon

Enough of my tears, enough of your lies
Enough of your games, take off your disguise

I know what you’ve done, I’m done with this game
My heart will get fixed, it’s all just the same

One day I will find him, I’m sure you will see
The one who is perfect, signed sincerely me



bleh...

Roller Coaster

Today has been such an emotional roller coaster! Grr i think we are going to get a car after all. This weekend should be interesting, prom dress shopping yee yeee! we will see what happens. x)

Good Day Gone Bad

Today i actually woke up on time. I turned in my crappy research report. I'm pretty sure i aced my IMP quiz and pre calculus test. I got out of my boring ass northrup Grumman class at 4:30 (an hour early!). Then when i got home my mom hit me with some bad ass news.

Since the beginning of the week I've been telling everyone that I'm going to start driving next week. However, I just found out that my mom will no longer be working as of November. I kept trying to think of reasons to get a car anyways, but the only thing i can think of is because i want one and my summer and senior year is going to suck big time. My Dad said that if it means so much to me then we will get me a used car at least. But nothing at this point sounds convincing. DAMN IT!